I wanted to share this letter from Jimmy at this time, I think its very important to show the heart of my son when he speaks about Dr. Kim along with the stress of everything. I am so proud of my son for being able to continue from day to day, but I can see, the light going dim in my son’s spirit, I know this letter is older and out of sequence, but just as important, letter # 11 of when he started dating them.
How is my wonderful mother doing, good I hope. I love and miss you and really want to thank you you mom for everything your doing, dont think for one second your not appreciated and the things you do mean everything to me, I feel so bad all the time knowing what I put you through, Just by all thats going on I know you dont have the energy that you used to have to just make calls and write letters on my behalf is a lot on you. but I want you to know I think its helping, sometimes things seem to be slowly better, at least today it is.
I know you finally talked to Dr. Kim, he is in charge of the unit I am in and my care..Needless to say we don’t exactly see eye to eye. I’m not saying he isn’t a good doctor, I don’t doubt him as a doctor, even though I feel he doubts me as a patient and I think that is my biggest stress factor.
Anyways today they had a big meeting with me, Dr. Kim, a physiologist, pysc Dr. Steel, my nurse, councelor Passion, and social worker Cacias all came into my room. This morning Dr. Kim said he had talked to you. It’s funny to me that he is down playing everything. He brought up the code blue saying it never happened, then when I told him I was going to get copies of my medical file he started back pedaling. He said well I did find a report that Dr. Wang thought you had overdosed on drugs but when you were sent out to the hospital you tested negative for drugs, but I don’t recall a code blue, I said well I guess I’m making up nurse Ramos having to do CPR on me and I guess your saying Dr. Wang is incompetent and sent me out code blue to the nearest hospital because I wasn’t breathing on my own. and my oxygen was 2%. Dr. Kim then said well I’ll talk to Dr. Wang and get the full details, I was unaware of that. I said well that don’t make since to me because your the one who put me in the prison hospital when I came back on Sept. 27th stating that because I had stopped breathing I needed to be monitored and now that my mom calls you, you dont know nothing about it.
See mom their trying to cover their asses because that day when I stopped breathing they jumped the gun on the spot and told everyone (sergeants, nurses and Corcoran district hospital, the ambulance that I had OD on drugs, so when I got to Corcoran district hospital I am trying hard to tell the doctor there my medical condition and he’s not paying any attention to me because he is going by what the prison and ambulance told him, that I OD. so I beg him to drug test me which they do, they put a catheter in me and got urine and test it, but before they can ever get the results back I vomit blood in front of him, so then he’s like well maybe this guy is telling the truth. So he calls a ambulance and has me transferred to San Joaquin Community Hospital because Corcoran is a very tiny small community one.. So once the prison realized it wasn’t, I feel they are trying to cover it up because thats like malpractice. But see thats another issue, the damage has already been done, again the nurses on duty that day were all told I overdosed of course they weren;t ever told after the fact it wasn’t. so I can’t blame them because look at all the shit they have been told, He makes himself bleed, he induces vomiting, he bites his tongue, he cuts himself, he fakes it. this and that… so of course they are not gonna believe anything I say. But I think their realizing now that I am not faking it.. I’m in a room with two comeras, I’m watched 24 hours a day… So now they see I’m not inducing vomiting. I’m not cutting myself, am not biting myself but like I said a lot of damage has been done already by all the crap they’ve been told. You cant believe some of the excuses they have been told. Mom everything they have come up with has had no merit. They said I was mixing koolaid, ok, so now they test it and always it test positive for blood, they said I mix coffee grounds, but yet we dont get coffee grounds. Everything is instant. You know that mommmmmmm, you order my packages. and the list goes on and on. So today I brought all that up because I want it documented like I told Dr. Kim, who am I suppose to believe, 4 or 5 Doctors and a specialist at an outside hospital or you and MD working in a prison hospital.I told him he says I dont have AVM, they say I do, he says I don t bleed a lot, they say I do, he says I would never need a blood transfusion, but they he sent me out the next day a code 3 for one.. Anyways mom heres the thing, the doctors at San Joaquin said I am a rare case, and doing a scope did show I had AVM, but if I am not actively bleeding right at that moment in time, its hard to diagnose some times. they said what they believe is the bleeding is not a constant 24 hour occurrence, so in order for them to catch the exact places of the bleed, I would have to be actively bleeding right when they do the scope. they got lucky on July 1st. and seen over 100 pinsize bleeds, they have pictures of it so Dr. Kim is going by a few scopes that have been done when I had no active bleeding. he seems to think if I take my prilose for 30 days everything will stop.. HELLOOOOOOO I BEEN ON PRILOSEC FOR 5 YEARS, mom you know that and ZI cant go more then a day or two without it, I had a excellent Dr. and that is Dr. Wang, even though he thought I OD that day, I still like him and I never pushed that issue because I don’t want to get him in trouble. because he has been the only person who has ever treated me with dignity and respect, he never doubted me as a patient, never accused me of faking it. He knew I had a medical condition, he has been pushing for them to treat me for Hep-C, because San Joaquin keeps saying I need the treatments for it, but ever since he got transferred to a different yard and now I got Dr. Kim even the Hep-C treatment is being swept under the rug. So I put in for a medical file review, its gonna cost me 10 cents a copy and my medical file is 2 feet long . I am going to get all the copies of the AVM diagnoses, the code blue reports and what ever else I see thats important and send to you. I want to get all the psyc reports to show that they have told the mental health people all the shit about faking it. now that I am being monitored behind glass they cant disprove my medical, they cant make excuses.
one more thing mother Dr. Kim today in the meeting was trying to justify why my hemoglobin blood count dropped so low was because of small bleeding over a long time. He looked stupid when he told me in front of all of them that my blood count would never drop below 11, the next day it went to 8.4. So today I told him in front of them 11.4 to 8.4 in a matter of 24 hours , he said no it didn’t so I said ok, I want copies of my blood test on tuesday the 9th and Wed the 10th, I said Remember Dr. Kim thats why you sent me out code 3 for a blood transfusion. Well mother I could go and on, just know I love you and keep doing what your doing, maybe someday soon, someone will help me…love Jimmy